Eclipse

OK, I hope I don't lose any readers that I may have from this blog by writing about vampires and werewolves...lol...but I do love the Twilight books. Today many twilight fans across the nations will be drooling over the big screen as those two mortal enemies unite to fight together for the life of the one they love. I will be watching the movie of the third book from the Twilight series tonight at 6:45, and I can't wait!

I was just skimming back over the book...I was hoping to read the whole thing again before the movie, but time has not allowed me to indulge in that again. So I skipped to my favorite scene--the tent scene. When Edward has to lay down his hatred and jealousy towards the dog trying to steal the love of his life, so that Jacob can warm up a freezing to death Bella...this is my favorite part. Jacob of course is quite comfortable in the arms of the woman he also loves, and Edward gets to hear his every enjoyable thought with his mind reading powers. It is just too funny. But it is also great that they lay down their differences and for a moment...a brief moment, form a quick friendship.

I was just thinking about this the other day...frustrated about how much I wish the people I love could just all put the past behind them...set aside differences, and just enjoy life together. To be happy. To all get along. Life is too short for all the fighting. We hear this all the time in movies, and music, or in church...but we just never seem to truly grasp the reality of it, and we continue to grumble and stubbornly hold on to hurts and never heal.

We have all been hurt...but it is time to lay our pain at the feet of Jesus and leave it there. Pick up His peace instead and hold onto that. Also, it is time to seek forgiveness if you have done wrong to others. We desperately need to allow the Heavenly Father to heal our hearts in order to move on and be able to live a joyful, abundant life.

My Many Colored Days

This is my favorite children's book; I have read it so many times I know it by heart, and it is wearing down quickly with most the pages falling out. I have read it allowed to many children, and I love to add dramatization to each page showcasing the different feelings that we encounter as humans. Yes, we are human...so why is it that we often tend to beat ourselves up for who we are?

We make mistakes, we feel things, we react to circumstances, we love, we laugh, we cry, we scream, we breathe, we live!!

Yet, if I have a bad day, a bad thought, a tantrum, a night of soaking my pillow in tears....I let those moments try to define who I am, and I think I am a horrible, messed up person. No...I am just human.

In this book, Dr. Seuss (and this book is very different from most of his books) attaches a color with a feeling or emotion. For example, "Then all of a sudden I'm a circus seal! On my Orange Days, that's how I feel." Or, "Green Days. Deep deep in the sea. Cool and quiet fish. That's me." And the one that I feel like I have been displaying a lot this last few weeks, "Then comes my Black Days. MAD. And LOUD. I howl. I growl at every cloud."

I just passionately adore this book. At the end, after going through this array of feelings and creatively showing how humans can change emotions throughout their days...Dr. Seuss reveals the comfort in all of this mess of mood swings we deal with; "But it all turns out all right, you see. And I go back to being...me."

Now, this is what I take from this book every time I read it...AND I REALLY NEEDED IT TODAY! I may, as a human, go through the roller coaster of emotions depending on what life hands my way...or even just because I am a woman, I may changes moods for no reason at all...lol...but...

It is OK! I am me in the mist of the messy moods: I am me when I am laughing so hard I can't breathe. I am me when I am relaxing and enjoying a good book. I am me when I am screaming at the unfairness of life. I am me when I am crying over loneliness. I am me when I am winning at games (had to throw that in). I am me when I am enjoying time with friends and family. I am me when I have a bad hair day. I am me when I lose my patience. I am me when my graceful self breaks something, and I am me when my heart is breaking. I am me when I fail. And I am me when I succeed. In all that, it doesn't matter the good, the bad, the ugly...the most important...and the only thing that truly defines me is this: I AM A CHILD OF GOD!

I am fearfully and wonderfully made in His image, and He knows me better than anyone else...and guess what...HE STILL LOVES ME!

So none of the ups and downs matter. He is my stable center!

GUESS WHAT....HE LOVES YOU TOO!

So no matter what mood you are in right now, Jesus loves you more than you can ever imagine. Find peace in that today.